Most my adult life I’ve had my hair short. This past year I decided to grow it out for my husband because he fancies longer hair. I’m not saying it looked bad but I really never wore it down. As I was looking for a before shot for this blog I could only find one photo where I wasn’t wearing it up.I just have to admit am just not a long hair sort of gal. Having my hair down on my neck just isn’t for me. Sure, being able to have Wednesday Addams braids was cool, but I’d rather just my hair short and cute.
Short and cute.
Really how I describe myself. I know that there are aspects of me that are beautiful(my eyes, hot damn) but mostly I consider myself to be cute.
I never really perceive myself as sexy either. I know that a portion of that perception is due to sexual abuse as a child, but since my revelation regarding the abuse I’ve really tried to see myself as a sexual being.
That there isn’t any shame in having desires even as a plus sized woman. Hell, especially as a plus sized woman.
So often we let other’s skewed perceptions of us guide our own. We end up feeling poorly about ourselves and we don’t change because we have certain expectations of ourselves.
These limits only hurt us in the long run. They prevent us from living up to our potential, achieving our dreams and ultimately keeping us from happiness.
Its a two way street though.
Sometimes its perceptions of loved ones or even total strangers that can help us see beauty in ourselves we would otherwise miss.
This new haircut has given me a small opportunity to see myself differently. Allow myself to feel like a beautiful person, confident that I can reach the goals that I have set for myself and to shake off any negativity from others I might have let bring me down in the past.
Also I had a coupon for it so yay for frugality!
~Kudi